It started with a kiss but what touched my lips was a childhood sip of a forbidden liquid which the grown ups always had at family gatherings. In my toddler's seat with wheels I'd cruise the room until my little legs stopped their thrashing next to Grandpa's table to shoot out a hand in the direction of his gin-and-it. 

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It may have been the small glass that attracted me. It may have been due to less practical reasons as the patterns on the glass refracted light through the vermillion vermouth. It may even have been my ear which enjoyed the clinks of ice cubes. I can't imagine that it was the taste of gin and vermouth which the wee me craved. 

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Whatever it was, the craving grew as I did and a multitude of sins did I revel in. 

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This site began after my diagnoses of ADHD, depression and anxiety. 50 years after taking my first steps I had reasons for the millions of literal steps I'd taken for the love of booze and the metaphorical steps into worlds of pain and danger. 

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However, there are thousands of people with similar problems writing blogs, presenting Youtube channels or publishing books. Many, maybe most, have had it much worse. I felt that I was a small fish in a big sea without the ability or experience to "wow" anyone so activate-deactivation.com has mutated into a place for me to occasionally out my thoughts without being tied to any particular theme. 

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I simply aim to activate the crippling deactivation of procrastination. With fewer double-negatives than the name suggests. 

 

I hope to amuse or bemuse, tease or please anyone kind and patient enough to read my musings.  

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Neil Highnam

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